AmbiGuous-OmnibuS.

                A coin has its value only when it has got the both sides of it.

                 Toss it.

             When a wave propagates it goes with a consecutive crests and troughs. That’s how it sails throughout its life time before it gets dampened (death). Life is a wave. It definitely has got its crests and troughs.

The coin which got tossed at the starting of this essay should either be a HEAD or TAIL after hitting the land being biased. A wave though having its crests and troughs in vertical motion has its propagation in a horizontal motion for the sake of reaching its destination or by its nature (whatever).

My mind is a piggy bank of few fist full of dollars or coins which always pop out as in a pop-corn maker. No rest and remaining unbiased. As the denomination of the coins, my thought coins also have few appellations of their own.

Money-Satisfaction (JOB coin)

I accept Money is not everything……but don’t leave the underlying fact that it can buy MANY THINGS.

Getting a good amount of money, a gr8 car with your girl on your shoulder, drive straight on to your yacht and sharing the finest wine with a campfire and a cosy bed. This sounds great and nice.

Also sometimes this tiny heart of mine, without minding it's own business of periodical  pounding also gives some concern to the issues like poverty, girl infanticide, women molestation and corruption.

I may not do anything to them. I may not change the world. But a tiny hope in ma tiny heart  always thumps periodically that I can affect it to some extent at least…..
That lands me on struggle for existence rather on survival of the fittest.

Philanthropy-Misanthropy (Attitude coin)

Sometimes I feel I have to love everyone (now don’t come up with a mocking alacrity as I am not addressing girls alone.) like some Mother Theresa, with a smile on face and a heart in mind that’s all it needs and takes.

Sometimes I feel like for the people who don’t care and who doesn’t know the value of life and the way they are living being mean etc. making me to feel that they don’t deserve my concern.
this makes me to care for them sometimes and hate them as the way they are being.
no one can be perfect and whom am I to expect anything from them.

Sex-Character (Character)

Sex is the natural tendency and the law of nature which creates a automatic attraction of the opposite sex. Sex is not crime. Sexual intentions are not wrong. Our pre-defined values and principles of our culture alone makes it as a sin (paapam).

But sometimes I also feel that you just have sex with everyone as a stray dog and should have some values and principles by yourself. For yourself.

This Physio -Psychological ambiguity is a Jeopardy for my psychological placidity.

Anger-Kind (nature).

Its obvious that sometime or other there comes a situation or incident which raises the adrenalin. The anger. Explodes.

Later we realise and repent that the anger most of the time is shown on our nearer and dearer ones.

I also want to be kind to them. Showing my love alone.

Anger always remains as an accident for me.
I don’t know when it comes. I know why.  But that’s futile.

Monogamy- Polygamy (Relations)

In Hindu Mythology there’s a saying that the number of whorls (sudulu) equals the number of wives.

This blushes me as I have got 3 of them...:P

When all the kings and gods whom we take up as idols, ideals and models etc. are polygamous and why don’t we accept and try it out.

For anyone they have a thought of marrying or lust or some carnal desire on other lady after marriage too. But as that’s a social sin so they don’t discuss that and builds her an epitaph inside the heart itself.

I am here just giving a live form for anyone’s or my own thoughts .

which may come……or may not come.


Hope-Despair(Philosophy-coin)

Its always this tiny hope which actually makes us to fly high to our dreams and at the same time can stamp down to earth crackling up the expectations.

A hope always helps for some positivity.

It gives patience.

But when the expectations do not reach, then it’s the Despair.

Sometimes I intentionally entertain the feel Despair.
it’s actually the other side of looking at your things from a negative side to a positive shade.

Mind sometimes entertain stoicism.



These above are a certain collection. An inevitable concoction.

An Omnibus of the times of my state of Ambiguous..! 

-Ram.